Monday, April 28, 2014

Strive


Words to live by.

I've been practicing and attending yoga classes for the past year now.  This is something I came across that I should always remember while doing my yoga poses.  Plus also learn in my daily living.  Simple words, but sometimes so hard to follow.

Strive for Progress, not Perfection.

Namaste.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

A Mother's Prayer

Dear Lord, It’s such a hectic day,
With little time to stop and pray,
For Life’s been anything but calm,
Since You called on me to be a Mom,
Running errands, matching socks,
Building dreams with matching blocks,
Cooking, cleaning, finding shoes,
And other stuff that children lose,
Fitting lids on bottled bugs,
Wiping tears and giving hugs,
A stack of last week’s mail to read,
So where’s the quiet time I need?
Yet, when I steal a moment, Lord,
Just at the sink or ironing board,
To ask the blessings of Your grace,
I see them, in my small one’s face,
That you have blessed me
All the while –
And I stoop to kiss
That precious smile.

—–Author Unknown





Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Aaron and Katrina's Wedding


Congratulations to my brother and new sister in law!  May you have a lifetime filled with love and happiness!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

For all Mothers


For all Mothers
(including soon to be Mothers)

We are sitting at lunch one day when my daughter casually mentions that she and her husband are thinking of "starting a family." "We're taking a survey," she says half-joking. "Do you think I should have a baby?"

"It will change your life," I say, carefully keeping my tone neutral.

"I know," she says, "no more sleeping in on weekends, no more spontaneous vacations."

But that is not what I meant at all. I look at my daughter, trying to decide what to tell her. I want her to know what she will never learn in childbirth classes.

I want to tell her that the physical wounds of child bearing will heal, but becoming a mother will leave her with an emotional wound so raw that she will forever be vulnerable.

I consider warning her that she will never again read a newspaper without asking, "What if that had been MY child?" That every plane crash, every house fire will haunt her.

That when she sees pictures of starving children, she will wonder if anything could be worse than watching your child die.

I look at her carefully manicured nails and stylish suit and think that no matter how sophisticated she is, becoming a mother will reduce her to the primitive level of a bear protecting her cub. That an urgent call of "Mum!" will cause her to drop a soufflé or her best crystal without a moments hesitation.

I feel that I should warn her that no matter how many years she has invested in her career, she will be professionally derailed by motherhood. She might arrange for childcare, but one day she will be going into an important business meeting and she will think of her
baby's sweet smell. She will have to use every ounce of discipline to keep from running home, just to make sure her baby is all right.

I want my daughter to know that every day decisions will no longer be routine. That a five year old boy's desire to go to the men's room rather than the women's at McDonald's will become a major dilemma. That right there, in the midst of clattering trays and screaming
children, issues of independence and gender identity will be weighed against the prospect that a child molester may be lurking in that restroom.

However decisive she may be at the office, she will second-guess herself constantly as a mother.

Looking at my attractive daughter, I want to assure her that eventually she will shed the pounds of pregnancy, but she will never feel the same about herself.

That her life, now so important, will be of less value to her once she has a child. That she would give herself up in a moment to save her offspring, but will also begin to hope for more years, not to accomplish her own dreams, but to watch her child accomplish theirs.

I want her to know that a cesarean scar or shiny stretch marks will become badges of honor.

My daughter's relationship with her husband will change, but not in the way she thinks.

I wish she could understand how much more you can love a man who is careful to powder the baby or who never hesitates to play with his child.

I think she should know that she will fall in love with him again for reasons she would now find very unromantic.

I wish my daughter could sense the bond she will feel with women throughout history who have tried to stop war, prejudice and drunk driving.

I want to describe to my daughter the exhilaration of seeing your child learn to ride a bike.

I want to capture for her the belly laugh of a baby who is touching the soft fur of a dog or cat for the first time.

I want her to taste the joy that is so real it actually hurts.

My daughter's quizzical look makes me realize that tears have formed in my eyes. "You'll never regret it," I finally say. Then I reached across the table, squeezed my daughter's hand and offered a silent prayer for her, and for me, and for all the mere mortal women who stumble their way into this most wonderful of callings.
Please share this with a Mum that you know or all of your girlfriends who may someday be Mums. May you always have in your arms the one who is in your heart.

(Author Unknown)

Monday, February 18, 2013

Happiness with My Boys

It's been a while since I last posted on my boys.  Life just became hectic and I didn't have the time to update here.  Here are some new photos I took of my boys playing with their action figures.  I keep on telling them they're call "dolls", but they insist that these aren't dolls!  Coz dolls are for girls and I'm not allowed to play with them if I am going to play with dolls.  Fine, I don't see the difference but I'll play along...  





Happy Monday!

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Happy Hearts Day!


Happy Hearts Day to the two little men in my life who make my heart go pitter-patter.  And to the not-so-little man who still makes my heart melt to this day.  Love you all! 

Friday, November 23, 2012

Happiness with...Bravery

Have you ever had the experience of expecting the worst in a situation, but it came out with the best results that you can ever pray for?  That's what happened to us this past weekend.

It started out with a "kuliti" in my eldest son's lower left eyelid a few weeks ago.  After a couple of visits to his pediatrician and ophthalmologist with applying only eye drops and warm compresses to the affected area to no avail, his ophthalmologist finally decided to do surgery to drain it.

Now my son is very prone to "kulitis".  Based on our doctor's records, we've been to her office at least once a year to have his eyes checked for various kulitis, but they all eventually resolved on their own with no further treatments.  Unfortunately this time, his kulitis (meaning two of them!) were more stubborn and didn't want to disappear.  They just got bigger and bigger and bigger that I became worried it might start affecting his vision. 

My son's condition is medically known as a chalazion.  You can read more about it here.  After deciding to go ahead with the surgery, we had to visit our pediatrician to get a clearance, since the procedure was going to be done under general anesthesia.  Just to be on the safe side, aside from doing a physical exam, the doctor also asked us to do a CBC.  And this was when I started to witness and realize how brave my little boy was.  Really!

When we went to visit the lab to have his blood test done, the cashier told me to go ahead and have his blood drawn first before paying for the test.  She said it was just to make sure that Joshua would have the test done on him, instead of him refusing and crying about it, and they would have to cancel the transaction.  This was his first time to get his blood drawn, and he didn't even flinch!  I told him not to look when the med tech was doing his thing, but he wasn't scared at all and watched the procedure being done.  He was more curious about what blood looked like and how it was being done!

After getting our results and was given the go signal by our pediatrician, I was next prepped by the anesthesiologist on what to expect and what to prepare for the next day's procedure.  Our procedure was scheduled for 7am the next morning and I was given last minute instructions with regards to fasting (no food and water after midnight), things to bring (toys and security blanket), etc. I was also told to prepare myself if ever my child becomes hysterical when he is wheeled into the operating room and also after he wakes up from the procedure when the anesthesia wears off.  So I was really mentally and emotionally preparing myself of what's to come the next day.  I also prepped Joshua of what to expect so he wouldn't be too scared about it.  I also told him that he was going to be a pirate the next day since he will be wearing an eye patch for 24 hours right after the procedure.

Well, when everything was said and done, all my worrying was for NOTHING.  My son took it like a trooper and he was even calmer than I was!  Not once did he cry from the time he was brought to the OR, where a mask was put over him so he could go to sleep during the procedure, and waking up from anesthesia with an eye-patch over his left eye.  All the doctors and nurses were praising Joshua on what a brave boy he was.  Mind you, the doctor told me that this was going to be painful after the anesthesia wears off since she will be doing an incision to take out all the yucky stuff inside.  But Joshua took it on with minimal tears and complaints.   

My brave little pirate and his partner in crime
His dad and I were so proud of him!  I can't thank God enough for blessing me with such a brave little boy!